Slumber Party

Oh, Interwebs, if you all lived closer I'd be inviting you to my house this afternoon!

I'm having a "Slumber Party", you know, those sex toy parties?  I had one last year, and I'll let you in on a little secret.  I actually became a distributor for a few months.  Turns out I hate selling things, even things that sell themselves.  But I love their products (not just the sex toys, geez, they have lotions and stuff too you know!)

So this afternoon my Slumber Mom Tracy is coming to do another party.  I'm really excited!  I love having girl time, and getting to laugh.  And I really need the laughter. 

Also, I have a post for either tomorrow or Monday.  It will go up as soon as I figure out how to use those poll thingies. 

Friends

I got a text message from Dingbat last night.  Around midnight.  She told me that they had found her best friend dead.  And that she was sad. 

I replied this morning that I was sorry to hear that, and that she was in my thoughts.

And then it hit me, Interwebs.  Dingbat considers me her friend.  There is no other reason to send a text message to someone at midnight.  When a person feels down, they reach out to their friends for comfort.  And she reached out to me.

I'm sitting here at work, kind of shell shocked.  I want to do something for Dingbat, but I'm unsure what that something is.  Flowers? A card? A yummy, not healthy treat? 

Huh. . . Guess I did do that

Hrmm . . I looked at the calendar today and it said it was the 27th.  That cannot possibly be right.  I mean, there is no way that I would go 7 days into ICLW without an introduction post, right??

Looks like I did!  I guess it was all the drama of finding out I can produce things that show up on ultrasounds, just not babies (yet).  And can I just say that all of your support has been freaking amazing!  Getting some form of encouragement every day, is awesome.  I can't begin to tell you all how much it meant, and means, to me.  But, I'm sure most of you understand what I'm trying (and not succeeding) at saying.

So let's see.  A quick bit of info on me can be found here or here.  But I've never really documented my whole TTC journey (and what an appropriate word journey is!).  Someday, I may even put it up on a sidebar.  But that requires effort, and I'm just not feeling it at the moment!

Me and the hubs got married in 2007.  We decided that we wanted kids, but not right away, so I stayed on bc pills (yeah, the irony kills me).  And the hubs was so paranoid about becoming a father when he wasn't "ready" that we used condoms as well.  Yeah. . . to be so blissfully ignorant again!

Last June, I went off bc pills, and we stopped using condoms.  But we weren't really "trying".  I wasn't charting, I wasn't using OPKs and in fact wasn't having many cycles either.

Found a good doctor in January, and he started me on The Plan.  Three months of bc pills to straighten things out, then three months of clomid to get me pregnant (yeah, this is the cliff notes version).  We all know what happened with The Plan.  It ended up causing me to have two giant (and one sorta giant) cysts.  Crap.

So now I'm starting on a new plan.  Back on bc pills for a month to shrink (please God) the cysts.  Then have another visit with "ET's finger" (my hubbys friend called it that, and I just about died).  If the cysts  have shrunk we move to a new plan.  If they haven't, surgery.

Of course, there's always the elusive option of getting pregnant this month because I'm "relaxing" and "not thinking about it", right?

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And guess what interwebs?  I got blog awards!  OMG, OMG, OMG!  I'll post them later!

Just a short post

So, I've got a new nickname thanks to my mom, and my husband.  Bubbles.  Yeah, my Mom thought it up, and I mistakenly told my husband, and now its sticking.  I always wanted a nickname, but I guess I didn't realize that most nicknames are chosen for you rather than by you!

Everything is going ok for me right now.  Still some dull pain that can spike when I bend wrong, or when the cat or dog land on my stomach.  Otherwise I'm feeling ok.  I'm debating going in to another doctor for a second opinion as everything I read on Dr. Google says if a cyst is over 5 cm it will need to be removed surgically.  I don't want to have surgery, but if I need it, I'd rather get it over with.

So, I'll leave you with two questions.  First, do you have any nicknames that you love and/or hate?  And second, what do you think about the second opinion doctor thing?

The ultrasound photo

Yeah, I could have added it to the last post, but I'm tired, and in pain, and grouchy.  

This is the picture of the cyst inside the cyst.  This is the 10cm cyst.  

This is also a picture of a picture, so the quality isn't that great.  My scanner doesn't work with my computer anymore because (geek stuff ahead) its a 32-bit program and my computer now uses a 64-bit.  (you know what the best part of that sentence is?  I understand none of it, but I smile and nod as my hubby says it!)

Update on my Update

Well holy hell.

Got to the doctor this afternoon, and after talking to me we head to the ultrasound room.  I got my first experience with a vaginal ultrasound, and I didn't feel as violated as I thought I would.

But that's probably because of what we saw.  Two cysts.  One on each ovary.  Huge cysts.  One is 10cm and the other is 8cm.  Holy. Hell.  Wait, actually its three.  One of the cysts has a cyst inside it.  Yeah.

I brought home one of the ultrasound pictures because, holy hell, who would believe this without pictures?  I'm working on getting it scanned in so I can upload it. 

Anywho, that explains all the problems I've been having.  It explains the pain, and the using the bathroom a lot.  The damn cysts are pushing against my bladder and my uterus.  Oh, and it didn't look like anybody was in the later.  My mom is still holding out hope, but for me its gone.

The doctor was floored when he saw the size of the cysts.  Especially since I was just in there in May for my annual exam.  So then he gave me another "hands on" exam (for lack of a better term) and he still could barely feel them, and that's because he knew what he was looking for this time.  They are a lot higher than they should be.

By the time I got dressed and met the doctor back in his office, he was googling large cysts from clomid.  That's right interwebs, my doctor googles!  He says these are the biggest cysts he's ever seen, and that kinda scares me as he's been an obgyn for 20+ years. 

So, we're obviously taking some time off from TTC.  I'm going back on birth control as soon as AF shows up, and I go back into the doctor in a month to see if they've shrunk.  If they haven't, I get to have surgery. 

Had to share!

Ok, I'm not supposed to log on here while at work, but I couldn't resist posting this!

My doctors appointment is at 2:30 this afternoon, Mountain Time.  I'm kind of nervous to find out what's going on in there, but I hope that they can tell me whats going on.